I know that it's wrong to touch myself at night, but I just can't stop myself. I've never had sex and I just keep fantasizing about it over and over again. I think about what it would feel like to have someone else inside me and I can't stop my thighs from squeezing together until I orgasm. I always feel ashamed and cry myself to sleep afterward. I need to find someone to show me what it's like in real life so I don't have to touch myself any longer.